A few days ago mama asked if I would sing “No Matter What” by Kerrie Roberts in church before my surgery. At first I said no. Part of me thought I would get up there in front of the entire church and get too emotional to even sing, the other part of me couldn’t help but think, “I’m having surgery on my tongue and neck. The doctor has said it would affect my speech. What if this is the last time I will ever sing?” I didn’t think I could handle that thought, but the more I thought about it and thought about the words of that song, I knew that I needed to sing. So today in church I pushed all those negative thoughts aside, controlled my emotions, and sang “No Matter What.” The lyrics could not have been more fitting! “I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises You. Before a heartache can ever touch my life it has to go through Your hands and even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why. No matter what I’m gonna love You. No matter what I’m gonna need You. I know that You can find a way to keep me from the pain, but if not, I’ll trust You. No matter what.”
Those lyrics explain exactly how I have been feeling and how I want
others to know how God will take care of me no matter what happens in my life.
After I finished singing the whole congregation gave me a standing ovation.
Then Pastor Gary put his arm around me and called any women of the church that
wanted to, to come up and pray over me. Mama and Nana came up and many other wonderful
women in my life. It was so special and so heartfelt. I felt the love of these
ladies and the love of the Lord. Today was a day I will never forget. Of course
I cried all through the prayer, but I just feel so blessed to have such a
loving church family who cares so much about me. I am so thankful for that and
it makes such a huge difference at a time like this.
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